Whatever...

Ok, who knows... for some reason I'm here.
Yeah... perhaps I should just go to sleep... perhaps I should be doing some homework. But.. I'm here.

I'm a bit worried about my life. Is it really important to worry about it? I'm on a PhD. program attempting to probe myself how smart I am. Sometimes I think I'm just not that smart... sometime I think I am... but at the end... I'm just another person, with some ideas and some more years yet to live.

I don't like being here wasting my time, however... I felt I should do something to release the stress I'm feeling right now... NO.. I'm not feeling any relief yet... and no... this is not going to give me clues on my research or my personal life. But I thought it would be some nice therapy.

I'll let you know if it worked.

So far... I am in the middle of some crisis... I don't know what am I doing here. I don't want to study anymore... but unluckily, I'm still here, and my pride won't let me run away - neither the family gossip about a quitter. Anyways... my current relationship is turning into a closed.. circle which I feel is not letting me breathe. I might be a bit claustrophobic... but I feel like she is on top of me all the time... talking to me all the time. I feel like I don't have any space and my reduced concentration capabilities are not improved with her constant interruptions and fights.

She loves picking fights... It's like everything I say... she would find any reason to fight about. I'm not pretty sure if the tension and the irritability I'm going through helps... but without a doubt she's found as many reasons as you can imagine. If I try to explain... I do it worse and she will started from another point of view.

I'm kind of tired anyway... I feel like I need somebody else... and I'm not talking about another girl... I'm talking about a friend. I have no friends now... and she's my best friend, but for some reason I'm not able to talk to her about it. Maybe, because I'm affraid of having another fight.

... well... this is too much stupidity written here for today... I'll better go to sleep...

First blog

Hey there. I'm not a native english speaker. I'd try though, posting here some of the stuffs I know or believe. (hopefully, a parallel version of my spanish blog). If you have any topic you like to discuss, just post it here. Thanks!